Catching Up

October 5, 2013 - it has been over a year, and I nearly forgot that I had a blog ooops :).
The past several months have been trying at best for me. I lost my mom in June while worlds away from her and uttered my goodbye through tears, over the phone as she lay in my father's arms...less then a half an hour after I told her that I wasn't ready for her to go, but I understood; My brother called to tell me she was gone. I was wracked with grief, I didn't know how empty I would feel when I heard those words, how hollow, how surreal and painful they were.  I hope that my mom was not in pain, I am thankful that I got to tell her I loved her, and I was even able to Skype with her the morning before - when she seemed to be doing so well. I hated how alone my dad was and was thankful that the family of the Villa Alegria had welcomed him in as their own, and that he was not alone in those nights leading up to him coming back to CO. They assisted my father with  getting everything squared away in the week before he came home and helped him with everything. They made sure he was eating, and they took care of him, when no one else could. And for that I will be forever grateful.
Less then 72 hours later my Aunt Rhoda passed away from Liver cancer. My brother, my sister-in-law and I gathered with my uncles and my cousins in a small room in Memorial Hospital to see my aunt and my family and let them know we were there, and we love them and her of course. My Aunt's beautiful funeral was a week later just after my Dad got back to Colorado.
The months of June and July blur together for me. I spent a lot of time running or at the gym - trying to lose my self and cope simultaneously. There were days that I was at the gym 3 times and others that i would go to the gym, then teach golf and then run...I had to stay busy, when I wasn't busy my mind drifted, and my heart would hurt. I lost myself in my addiction to the gym, it was healthy for me, I had found an outlet that allowed me to feel better but process my grief at the same time, all while making myself into a better & healthier person.
In August, just after a friend of mine completed the Pikes Peak Ascent, I decided that I would like to be able to do that - this coming year too, so I started talking training with her, while continuing my fairly crazy gym schedule and work began again.
On Saturday August 17, I was leaving the gym, after a Les Mills bodypump class and a shower. I was putting my gym bag into the driver-side passenger door, when the car next to me started and began to back up...I noticed that the vehicle was backing out crooked but not in time to get out from between my car door and my car. She hit my door which in turn smashed me between the door and the frame of the car. I called and reported the accident, because the woman had left the scene and I had her license plate number. When the police, the fire engine and the ambulance showed up I thought that I was okay. I went home to change clothes and get an ice pack before I headed to Skyview for my boyfriend's softball tournament. Less then 2 hours later, while watching one of the softball games, I no longer felt okay, my abdomen was tender and my back hurt. I went to the ER, when I noticed I was bleeding.